On Writing Dad’s Biography
Posted in Family, Harold Laranang, Karate, Writing on May 15th, 2008 1 Comment »
Being the fatalist I am, I’ve begun to consider how recent research endeavors over the past few years have led me to the germination of a project I’ve always known I am responsible for producing but previously did not see any way I could even consider, much less approach, the task…Dad’s biography.
People want to know who he was. Martial artists need to establish a verified lineage. Everyone in the family has a breaking need to know where we came from and who our father was before he was our father.
For everyone who wants to know, urgency is the gun-point of time. There are only a select few family members and students who were present during Dad’s formative years; there are even fewer who remember details that might answer some of the questions everyone has, and they’re aging. Once they’re gone, their memories are gone with them. If no one takes up the knowledge now, it will never be carried on.
How does a person begin to write about an individual’s entire lifetime?
The aspiration is intimidating enough if a person lived a relatively quiet life. But Dad…he lived boisterously, intentionally, heavily, purposefully. Everywhere he went, he left influence–friends, soldiers, karateka, high school students, and of course, his children. And every person he influenced would recall him in a singularly dynamic way. How could I begin to peer through the eyes of so many people, get a glimpse of him as they saw him, filter out the brightest rays of perspective, and then blend them all into one beaming light that would illuminate exactly who he was?
Honestly, I still don’t know how I could ever accomplish such a task, but I believe I may be approaching the faintest traces of a design.
I researched (and still do) the history of hula and discovered lines of style, variations in teaching methods, differing places of origin. I learned about individual kumu hulas, who their kumus were, where they learned, where they taught, who they taught, what they taught. Now, I have a rather solid concept of the hula family, from the ancestors preserved in legend, to the current kumu hulas who are at the forefront of the art.
And my research of Shotokan…this truly brings it home for me. I knew of Funakoshi from the research Dad required years ago, so there was at least a small frame of reference for me. I knew how to begin studying the development of Shotokan because I’ve been doing the same thing with hula for years now. And tonight…reading about Takemori in Hawai’i, considering–just considering the possibility Dad may have crossed paths with a master who is directly linked to Funakoshi…. Relevant. Relevant. Immediately relevant. It’s something of a key.
Could I apply the same research methods to Dad’s history? Would it be an easier task, because of my relation to the subject? Or would it be more difficult, for the very same reason? Do I have what it takes to tackle such a broad field of information? Do I have a minimum practical knowledge to be able to recognize important details? Am I skilled enough as a writer to compile all the information into a narrative that will do justice to his legacy?
One fear I have is learning so much, discovering so many things, that it will be too much, and I’ll never see the project through to completion, because it’s just beyond me. (But on the other hand, I know how to narrow down a topic to a manageable scope. Theoretically, I could do the same with a body of biographical information. If the material called for more than one book, I’d write more than one book and not try to cram it all into a huge, cumbersome monstrosity.)
Another thing–what on earth could I uncover? What if I learn something I don’t want to know? I think it’s inevitable I’ll see a perspective of him that will be a complete surprise. He was, after all, not everybody’s daddy. Am I prepared to see those things? Can I maintain an objective viewpoint?
By far, however, the biggest thing I fear is…the emotional involvement. Nope. Still have never properly mourned. Been in an unbreakable state of denial since Day 1. Crack every now and then at a photo, or an item of his clothing…a song, a joke, the thought of his big, brown arms around me…. But beyond that, he’s still in Texas. Just haven’t heard from him in a very, very long time.













